What 10 weeks of soul searching can do.

its been ten weeks , not very long in general but it felt like forever. my feelings have changed quite a bit for my stbx. I really feel like I don't Love him anymore. because of this cruelty he has placed on me it has killed any positive feelings I have ever had with this man. It is still painful to divorce but I am at pure acceptance. My financial situation has turned into negative for the next few months , my ex wanted to stay a while to pay down his bills before he left . I  was planning on telling him to move out but looks like that can't happen right now . We talked a little , the money he is giving me for bills I will consider rent . Although I really don't want him here , I will tolerate this for survival of my son and i . The divorce isn't final yet but should be in a few weeks. So while my ex is helping himself , I shall be helping myself too. We hardly talk , honestly I can't stand him , but I bite my tongue  A lot now. 
     If you asked me ten weeks ago if I thought I would be in. Such acceptance I would have said no . But now I have surprised myself. I catch myself asking myself how could I have tolerated him so long, his negatives far over weigh the positives. His choice and now he got his wish. No wife.  I was doing my best for years to make him happy , took care of everything for him, and this is the thank you I get right? Well he doesn't deserve a wife if you ask me. He surely does not deserve me. I can't wait till this is all over with.