Pity for him

i am frustrated with myself , my feelings about this situation have not changed . I want him to leave , I am ready to be divorced and I want to heal my life and move on. I am definitly extremely angry .. But the strangest thing I feel is pity for him. i feel bad for being so cold toward him now, although I know I shouldn't feel that way. I feel bad sometimes about his life and how unhappy he is . Again I shouldn't , he doesn't deserve the pity. After all , he has no pity for my child and I . none. I find it strange that as angry as I am.  I feel these little bursts of pity for him. The pity fades quickly as I think of everything he has said to me the last few months, and that he has chosen to leave me and my son. I just don't like that I feel that , as small as that feeling is. It is frustrating.  right now, I don't talk to him at all. Only when absolutely nessesary.  Even when I look at his face all I feel is anger, I feel disgusted by him. He has been absolutely cold toward me when it comes to him leaving us , like it doesn't bother him at all. So why I have these little bursts of pity is confusing. That being said , my anger has not lessened,my agenda has not changed. It was his choice!!