Just preparing

I feel better today then I did in the last journal entry I wrote. I have been slowly catching up on bills that fell behind when this all first started, thinking of what kind of single parent do I want to be, of what it will be like in my home when he is gone. My husband sometimes talks about what bills we can cut out so we can save money, I am thinking only in my head , what does he mean we?! he is leaving. I've always been the one to handle the money management and was doing fine until this situation put me out of commission for a bit. i don't like it when he says "we" , there is no more we , there is I and you. the divorce is not final yet but there is no we other then we are parents to the same child. 
     As I work on putting my finances back on track so I can handle the bills when he leaves , I have let him know that he can stay a bit to help him out , but really I am just helping my and my sons future now. All he thinks of is himself and he is used to me sacrificing so I am sure that is what he thinks I am doing but he is wrong . I am doing what I need to survive after this is done. 
      I also have been thinking to myself , oh he is being nice and friendly now .... But I then readjusted my mind and realized no , he is leaving the marriage and his family , he is not friendly or nice , it's pure greed. And selfishness is where he is coming from . Whatever makes this divorce easier for him . That's fine now . It is better if he is friendly but this time I don't look at it as oh there is his nice side again , I think of it as easier for me to get through this too. I think his kindness is not genuine that would have made m angry before but what is the point now ? 
Just a little bit longer and all this will be done. Till then I just have to chill.the money he gave me to pay for few bills  every month before is now rent for him living here. He knows this , I told him that. I don't plan on letting him stay as long as he needs to! but I am sure he thinks I will. He stays until I gather my budget nice and tight. After all no child support or alimony in this divorce so I can survive long after my child is an adult With my own money , my assets that he has agreed not to take that he is entitled to in exchange for him not having to pay my child and I anything. In the long run this is best for my child and i . 
Just another month or two max if I can stand it.