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I am not getting any counselling....its hard to find the right one and stick with it...........for now its just my psychiatrist, and it is hard to tell him everything, even though I have been seeing...

seems I dont get on here enough these days.Am not doing so good, psychotic thoughts getting really bad...I want to kill someone...I want to smash myself with a hammer till I cant feel anymore...i...

am feeling rather angry all of a sudden and feel a strong urge to Self injure. I dont like feeling like this...I know SI will make the feeling go away for a while, but then Im getting myself back...

Pristiq-- 200mg - morningAbilify---10mg -morning (will increase over next few weeks to 20mg?)Seroquel-25mg- morning- (more throughout the day if needed)Seroquel-500mg- night

Well, what can I say...Abilify is great stuff....I never thought I could possibly let it work ( I am good at blocking the good effects of meds) ,I feel great, or am I just on a high and going to...

Just posting to keep a record of my meds.Pristiq-- 200mg - morningAbilify---5mg -morning (will increase over next few weeks to 20mg)Seroquel-25mg- morning- (more throughout the day if...

this morning I am feeling a bit calmer, still want to die, but my head is just different, thoughts have slowed down a bit today...its strange really....head seems almost empty.

so here I am again...feeling better???? no dont think so...... am thinking that my psychiatrist is poisoning me with all these meds.....or is that just a part of my paranoia?? no, im not paranoid,...

well now my main goal in life is to die....guess it is only the meds keeping me alive...dont know why i continue to take them...if I go off all  meds, I would feel awful and would probably go...

today all my crazy negative thoughts have come back....feel so much more calm with them there....my head isnt empty again...dont notice the depression as much with head so full.....just cant win

just had an overwhelming urge to hurt myself...didnt have time to think...just did it.....burnt my wrist bad...i am so stupid..

well... I thought I knew what depression felt like for the last 30 years....guess I was wrong....last 3 weeks I have felt really low, with no break for even a minute...I just feel really depressed...

3 months on pristiq now and i dont think it is doing me much good...started on 100mg,then 150, now up to 200mg...pdoc thinks my mood has gotten better....me I dont know......thoughts of wanting to...

Have been so up and down this year.......from being really well and happy...to near going through with suicide the next day.... thoughts of suicide forced into my mind everyday no mater how I...

was on 200mg for 3 years now...just started reducing it by 50mg a week with no problems at first, am now down to 100mg for last 3 days and not feeling to good...my head just feels like crap...really...