JulesHopeFaithLove11

still no SI

Still no SI...but so what...Im so over life to worry about it.

I suffered sexual abuse when I was younger...but I have never told anyone about it...dont know if I should or how I should go about it if I did.I just want to get rid of those memories that are...

dont know how I feel right now...I increased my dose of Zoloft to 200mg (which is what my pdoc wanted me on a year ago) and I think it is knocking me around a bit....I am really tired and just...I...

Havent SI'ed today and dont even have the urge to, so a good time to be starting my goal.

still up and down ...mostly down....but hey havent had to many SI thoughts today,,but the throbbing pain in my arm is a constant reminder.

Still not feeling any better. Have hit my wrist over and over again and it is sore, swollen and bruised...but i dont care, can take a lot more yet.when will this end...have appointment with pdoc next...

Ok...just jotting down some of the thoughts in my head...just to try and work out whats going on.coment if you want...dont read if you are easily triggered by SI coments.I cant help it.i want to keep...

I hate it so much how my mood can just change so quickly...doesnt even give me a chance to get help first..It scares me because what if one day im fine and then the next minute i decide im going to...

why do I feel so bad...I could disapere now and noone would notice. what is my problem???? I shouldnt be feeling this way...Time to put on a happy face and off to work I go.Last day for a few...

i am such a social outcast i dont know why i bother trying to fit in anywhere... What the heck is wrong with me????????? why dont people want to include me???????maybe because I seem so happy by...

have felt really tired and down all day today...lots of bad thoughts also...like I ve had enough and want it to end..want to die....wish I could get past these thoughts.

im just so scared of my feelings right now, I dont know what to do.....I think when Im feeling good then I can hear my psychotic thoughts more, and they are not good...they tell me that for me to...