3 month update

3 months on pristiq now and i dont think it is doing me much good...started on 100mg,then 150, now up to 200mg...pdoc thinks my mood has gotten better....me I dont know......thoughts of wanting to die are really bad...as soon as i have time to t hink...boom...there are the thoughts saying i should die...really scares me sometimes...so pdoc just keeps increasing seroquel...am now up to 550mg a day...thoughts just not going away and Im not to positive that the seoquel will help with that...pdoc talked about adding another med....why not....have to try something...dont see him again for 4 weeks...so will see how i am then.... so still a bit all over the place...only difference from 3 months ago is im drugged up even more. will this ever end???????????cause ive had enough!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!