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took first dose of 60mg Cymbalta 12 hours ago...it is now 7.15pm and have been ok all day...still really depressed and negative, but no side effects so far....although am not feeling withdrawal...

really had enough...i want to die....just have to work out how...im thinking an OD would be best at the moment.....just im to gutless to go through with it........so where do I go from...

I feel horrible.....major depression has now set in and its starting to get back to the level where I feel comfortable, bad I know but its hard to explain.was meant to start Avanza 30mg last month,...

Talk about ups and downs....yesterday I wasnt feeling great but I had a rest from the terrible thoughts....instead I had the same song going through my head the whole day...so still annoying but I...

I am not getting any counselling....its hard to find the right one and stick with it...........for now its just my psychiatrist, and it is hard to tell him everything, even though I have been seeing...

seems I dont get on here enough these days.Am not doing so good, psychotic thoughts getting really bad...I want to kill someone...I want to smash myself with a hammer till I cant feel anymore...i...

am feeling rather angry all of a sudden and feel a strong urge to Self injure. I dont like feeling like this...I know SI will make the feeling go away for a while, but then Im getting myself back...

Pristiq-- 200mg - morningAbilify---10mg -morning (will increase over next few weeks to 20mg?)Seroquel-25mg- morning- (more throughout the day if needed)Seroquel-500mg- night

Well, what can I say...Abilify is great stuff....I never thought I could possibly let it work ( I am good at blocking the good effects of meds) ,I feel great, or am I just on a high and going to...

Just posting to keep a record of my meds.Pristiq-- 200mg - morningAbilify---5mg -morning (will increase over next few weeks to 20mg)Seroquel-25mg- morning- (more throughout the day if...

this morning I am feeling a bit calmer, still want to die, but my head is just different, thoughts have slowed down a bit today...its strange really....head seems almost empty.

so here I am again...feeling better???? no dont think so...... am thinking that my psychiatrist is poisoning me with all these meds.....or is that just a part of my paranoia?? no, im not paranoid,...

well now my main goal in life is to die....guess it is only the meds keeping me alive...dont know why i continue to take them...if I go off all  meds, I would feel awful and would probably go...

today all my crazy negative thoughts have come back....feel so much more calm with them there....my head isnt empty again...dont notice the depression as much with head so full.....just cant win

just had an overwhelming urge to hurt myself...didnt have time to think...just did it.....burnt my wrist bad...i am so stupid..