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when I think about it, since yesterday I guess I am feeling a bit better...I dont want to admit it though...I guess Ive been so depressed for so long I dont want to feel better....will take some...

saw pdoc yesterday, he says I seem a bit brighter and more talkative than 3 weeks ago...i dont know...maybe I am....but these thoughts and anxiety dont help......told him I still dont feel like...

to much going on in my life right now.....just want it all to stop so I dont have to stress so much....ive really had enough....i want out of this life....go to see pdoc on monday, he will probably...

still dont feel any different...but I think with what is going on in my life at the moment, no meds is going to make me feel any better about...maybe help me stop worrying so much and make me able to...

maybe i have a bit more motivation....did manage to do 20 minutes of exercise today, which I haven't done in a long time.......dont know if its from the meds or not...........so want to go to bed...

still the same...still dont want to do anything or go anywhere...still want each day to end the moment I wake up in the morning.

im alive...no motivation...just depression....bring on bed time.....another 9 hours at least to go.

went out for lunch with a friend today, but couldnt wait to get home where i feel safe.dont know how I feel...dont know if I want to die....but dont want to live like this...as usual I cant wait for...

no nausea today.......but have really bad thoughts of wanting to die.

it is 10:40am and am feeling a bit of nausea, not to bad but its there....just hope it doesn't get any worse. want to try to get grocery shopping done today, but want to go back to bed.

still no side effects...............still wish the day would hurry up and end so I can sleep and not feel

took first dose of 60mg Cymbalta 12 hours ago...it is now 7.15pm and have been ok all day...still really depressed and negative, but no side effects so far....although am not feeling withdrawal...

really had enough...i want to die....just have to work out how...im thinking an OD would be best at the moment.....just im to gutless to go through with it........so where do I go from...

I feel horrible.....major depression has now set in and its starting to get back to the level where I feel comfortable, bad I know but its hard to explain.was meant to start Avanza 30mg last month,...

Talk about ups and downs....yesterday I wasnt feeling great but I had a rest from the terrible thoughts....instead I had the same song going through my head the whole day...so still annoying but I...