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I am not getting any counselling....its hard to find the right one and stick with it...........for now its just my psychiatrist, and it is hard to tell him everything, even though I have been seeing him for the last 10 years...........there is so much just bottled up inside slowly destroying me and I cant do a thing about it....... the thoughts are not as intrusive today, but still there...increased seroquel dose last night and this morning....now feel less motivated to get things done....cant win either way.... I see psych dr again on 13th may...... will see how I go between now and then and see if I can maybe write some stuff down to give to him or maybe email him.... I just want to feel some kind of normality for a change..
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omg. it\'s like youre reading my mind. i\'m begging my head to give me ANY sort of normalcy. hang in there. I know it\'s hard to talk to them. I always hold something back from my psych. I talk to him, then go home and cut and don\'t give him the slightest inclination I am. *sigh* we need to stop hiding it and actually allow them to help us. :-( even tho it\'s ultra difficult.