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so here I am again...feeling better???? no dont think so...... am thinking that my psychiatrist is poisoning me with all these meds.....or is that just a part of my paranoia?? no, im not paranoid, thats just what dr wants me to think...everyone really does hate me...including my Dr, so he is poisoning me....wants me to die......yeah....a slow painful death....maybe I just need to increase all meds and help the process along a bit....would certainly save me a lot of pain.............. what is wrong with me?????????why do I talk like this?????????? life is just way to hard.