JulesHopeFaithLove11

Still havent hurt myself...I still get the urge to but they pass withing minutes usually..

I have been doing really well the last month....have managed to teach 2 days a week and actually sit and write up some notes to make my classes easier...and I went really well teaching a class of 10...

maybe try for a month when i feel up to doing another goal

has just about been a week now without SI but I feel to numb to care right now

From my earliest memories...about 3 years old...I have been terrified of people and the world. I never spoke to anyone except my mum and my brothers and sisters, and then a few friends at school, but...

still no SI

Still no SI...but so what...Im so over life to worry about it.

I suffered sexual abuse when I was younger...but I have never told anyone about it...dont know if I should or how I should go about it if I did.I just want to get rid of those memories that are...

dont know how I feel right now...I increased my dose of Zoloft to 200mg (which is what my pdoc wanted me on a year ago) and I think it is knocking me around a bit....I am really tired and just...I...

Havent SI'ed today and dont even have the urge to, so a good time to be starting my goal.

still up and down ...mostly down....but hey havent had to many SI thoughts today,,but the throbbing pain in my arm is a constant reminder.

Still not feeling any better. Have hit my wrist over and over again and it is sore, swollen and bruised...but i dont care, can take a lot more yet.when will this end...have appointment with pdoc next...

Ok...just jotting down some of the thoughts in my head...just to try and work out whats going on.coment if you want...dont read if you are easily triggered by SI coments.I cant help it.i want to keep...