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so my mother is in the hospital, they're preparing to do a colonoscopy, some time this morning,  my dad can't be at the hospital. My aunt can only stay for so long.  My supervisor knows about my...

so I'm going out to man hunt tonight, HA! well anyway I was just remembering when I was in my early 20's I wrote a poem called Laura's a Bitch, cause I fucking hated her, and these guys that had a...

I am not suicidal, but I do wander why we try to stop others, why it's viewed as such a bad thing, those who are gone,  they don't have to suffer any more. why are we not supportive of each others...

I hate when I get crushes on people,  they never reciprocate,  they always send mixed messages,  (I mean why else would I be getting a crush on them)  I always like those wishy washy assholes,...

Ok, so I just got off the phone with my mom, and a very close family member is very ill, probably not going to live too much longer.  My mom thinks I'm an atheist, I'm Buddhist, which means, not...

Ok, I'm currently bored to tears.  The laugh alot like you've been smoking some good weed worker is making her existence known.  Lauging non stop at some secret conversation or whatever the fuck...

Everyone seems to be balanced today.  One of the SW's  DDD's last day at the office is Friday.  She is young, nicely built, and seemed to have crush on SWS HHH.  She will be free to date him...

So SWS CCC is out sick today.  SWS HHH said yesterday in the meeting that he would go with me to do the 7 day "Your ass is in case management" meeting with the family they were passing to me.  We...

DSS wasting time.  Case: mom and dad live seperately but working on marriege,  2 kids.  report comes in LE is with mom, she knocked over a neighbor's mailbox, and plowed through some yard, and had...

so I really thought my supervisor and I were close, I thought she had my back.  My bad.  I have a person who is not even a client being ugly and nasty with me, and she is not doing anything about...

so my day actually started out well.  I went to the gym, worked out.  I come to work and this bitch calls me and starts yelling at me for something she was asked to do, when she was the one who...

so I'm not sad, I'm not angry,  I'm not happy.  I'm just middle of the road right now.  I'm anxious to get my tax refund so I can pay off my credit card and give my daughter some money for...

that is the word for everything, everything in existence for me. empty. this is less than even the buddhist veiw of emty, it's so empty it's not worth existing for, and i want to stop existing,...

ok, so already knee deep in shit, gonna go home and get fucked up drunk.  It's just like I get pelted with one thing after another.  first my adult daughter wasn't talking to me cause she had a...

so following advice from psych and others to journal about wierd little things, supposedly each day, but life is not that spectacular, so not likely to happen every day.  big event of the day. ...