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Latest dumbass shit I'm having to deal with,  ....Older women in office next door has much bigger mental health issues than me.  her name is Betsy.  Well I had another worker in my office who I...

just want to update the journal here.  Right now I like my supervisor, the new one.  I have been on a steady good path for a few months now, with some interuptions in between, but nothing that has...

This is not due to one big bad event, but many small ones building and building and I need to cry so bad my head hurts. One, in May I got hopeful about this man who showed me some attention, but it...

Well, a man I have been interested in before came around again, of course I was hoping again that it would amount to something, but no, it did not.  It amounted to him wanting me to come over to see...

This one I have to think about.  I've read of cases where Buddha approved of the suicide of someone who was no longer wanting anything samsara had to offer and was ready to move on to becoming a...

I think I need to do some research on it.  I'm starting to detest spirituality.  I Buddhism because you can live and practice buddhism and still be athiest, it kind of works for any of the beliefs...

coming to work on wet pavement, on 55mph 2 lane highway a dog ran right into the front of my car, I hit the brakes but the car just skidded foward anyway and hit the dog.  Killed it I'm pretty sure,...

I took a training Monday and yesterday on the effects of physical and sexual abuse on children. Both of these happened to me several times. I felt like I was being described and wondered if anyone...

I had a stay interview yesterday with my supervisor.  She is one of the nicest supervisors I've ever had, but she'll stab people in the back I feel,  I can't say for sure, but I feel like she will...

When I think to much about how much of my time is spent dealing with assholes I get really really depressed and feel helpless to do anything more, I have no interest in relationships so getting a man...

I don't know if this is helpful or not, but according to a website for adults who endured childhood abuse it will.  So I was writing last night, think I got to age 3 maybe where I was tired of...

Well I am on call this weekend, and it will be what it will be, though I wish it to be very quiet, so I can get my house work done, and relax and enjoy the weekend.  Is that my luck however? I do...

In the first 7 months that I have been here or maybe more, I decided that this one young lady who is very attractive, except for some large craters in her face, skin, that she was a socio-path,...

Grasping at the ingerently existent I.  To start trying to identify it we contemplate situations where we have an exaggerated sense of I such as when embarressed, ashamed, afraid or indignant.  So...

My dad has been in Baptist Hospital since 8am Monday morning.  they had scheduled the surgery to take place at 8:30 and they got to it at around 11am.  The doctor came out trying to act all...