welcome back to dark side
ok, so already knee deep in shit, gonna go home and get fucked up drunk. It's just like I get pelted with one thing after another. first my adult daughter wasn't talking to me cause she had a shitty boyfriend. now that's over, blam! I get slapped in face with a shitty court case where I had to testify as a social worker, and get picked apart and made to look stupid, although the case did go in the direction I wanted, then be disrespected even more than usual at work. fuckers. and now slapped in the face with another mistake I made with a petition, because I thought the domestic violence occurred in front of the children, and it did not, and I did not change that on the petition written up by our attorney. I really feel like buying a gun now. feeling the cold steel next to skin and thinking of the sound it will make when it ends this hell we call life.
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No. Please don’t. I know I’m random person on the internet but please don’t think that. I get the appeal. I understand it but it doesn’t have to feel so hopeless.
This week a lot of bad has happened to me. I decided to try and be more positive in my life and since then it’s like major things keep smacking in my face and it’s making it difficult. Sometimes it seems impossible but it passes and I find comfort in the few things I care about. I hope you feel better tomorrow. If you ever need to talk, I’m here.
I know it seems like everything is picking on you. I wish it would make it easier to know that life isn't really picking on you. It is just random and chaotic, but I already know that it doesn't make it feel better. Recently, I read an article that might help (though I haven't been able to put it into my regiment yet). Try thinking about everything that is good, and when you feel like nothing is worth living take a look at this list. The article said to write one everyday, but I think this is something that can be worked up to. Let me know if you ever want to talk.
Thank you angelscry. I'm sorry it took so long to answer. But wanted you to know I'm good now