Trying to stay positive

I'm trying to stay positive. I'm looking for work. I'm on this computer everyday,except when I'm not.LOLOLOl!!!! Got laugh away the stress, can't cry and laugh at the same time. I know that I will find a job. It's just a matter of when. I often ask myself should I enjoy my time off, i've worked since I was 16. Maybe this my break.?? I think that this much time and energy could be use doing something for myself.  But when I do tings for myself I feel guilty about the money spent or the time "wasted".  IDK...... until next time.