Well I haven't been on DS in a while. I'm still on my meds and taking them faithly.  I'm not sure if I notice the any changes yet. I'm still not working but still looking. I must stay positive bcuz if I don't I will slide into a deep depressive hole. I thought of my old job the other night and got extremely sad. I mean really sad and panic. I felt like this must be a dream that I'm not getting ready for work after 14 yrs. OMG!!! I feel out of place and I tend to worry about the future for my family. I stay tense and nervous. I feel like screaming almost every other moment. I'm gaining weight, my ex works my nerves and my kids are being kids(which @ this point I can't take). I go to church and seek peace and that helps until hell breaks loose on Monday. Until next time.