smokeygirl
Status: Planning my week and struggling with urges to go and gamble again - - - talking myself out of it, even as we speak... but tough...
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Well, last weekend was the kicker. The place I have gone to with a friend now has new management, and theslot machines don't pay off like they used to... I have won jackpots there and that is what...
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Okay, so about 6-8 years ago, I was on this site and it really helped me a lot.. Thought I went on and off of casino gambling, I still felt mostly in control. I had stopped for quite some time. ...
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Was reliving the same urge today. :] however, I made a choice to stop for take-out dinner at a place I like and went home; now getting some things done in the house and happy (safe). Feels good,sg
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Today I had the urge to go; there are two friends at work that I used to go with; both have now gotten to a point of saying it is NOT worth it; all three of us got addicted and have now acknowledged...
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Got through Friday and Day 9 sounds better than Day 1 or 2.. :] The weekend is upon us and no intensions to mess up - as much as I miss it, I believe I can stay in avoidance mode tonight.SG
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Feels good right now, though of course I miss going but that will happen... I've certainly been down this road... too many times. DS still continues to help ... thanks to all of the wonderful...
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Well, today was Day 1 - deja vu :] I'm feeling positive about starting again and continuing the fight. Maybe I shouldn't use the word "fight" because that means that I'm already considering it a...
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True confessions . . . . Well here I am again - writing the next chapter in this journey. On June 20 I won a jackpot; I had no interest in returning to the casino and I thought that this had done...
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It has been three weeks... feeling pretty good...some urges now and then, but keeping the ride home in my mind the last time - which was a BAD experience. That's what I want to remember,...
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I have gone over the two weeks mark and happy about that. Having been through this so many times, I try not to get too excited and backtrack. I will stay positive, optimistic, and out of the...
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Well today is Day 9 - - the weekend is upon us, but I will not gamble; I will stay busy with other things. The two friends that I have gambled with are now realizing the impact of it... many many...
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I'm back trying again... I'm going to spend more time reading, posting, and praying. I need a higher power to help me with this; it doesn't work on my own, that is for sure. Right now I really...
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Somehow I skipped Day 10 :] but did remain gamble free! Having a great weekend; staying super busy and no time, really, to think about doing the wrong thing. Seem to be on a good track right...
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Good day - productive, clearer head, and very good mood! One of my friends who also went back recently (we've had a lot of conversation about staying away). We talk eachother back on track if...
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Today was a great day - didn't have any desire or urges to go out there. It's something that usually haunts me, no matter how many days into it. :] Today seemed a little different.Hope everyone is...
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