smokeygirl
Status: Planning my week and struggling with urges to go and gamble again - - - talking myself out of it, even as we speak... but tough...
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Made it through Sat and half way through Sunday; feeling okay. Just letting the days happen - not thinking too much about it. I find if I put too much emphasis on the fact that I haven't gambled,...
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Well, here it is Saturday - usually the biggest casino day for me. Right now I'm sipping a wonderful cup of coffee and making a list of the tasks I have to do today, which includes going to the mall...
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Here it is the 14th already - I've been keeping a good routine, which when I am gambling is so hard to do. It actually feels good. I'm trying to be organized and productive and so far I feel that...
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Well today I was challenged by the fact that my husband's plans included going to a pilot's meeting all evening, so there were about 4-5 hours when I knew that I could escape to the casino if I...
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I've been on the site a lot lately and reading others journals and posts seems to be helping me. I've committed to setting a certain amt of $$ aside each day for the year and so far I'm good - - it...
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Each day is getting a little easier - the week so far has been more productive and thoughts about gambling are not overwhelming me as much as they were. I have stayed disciplined this week with...
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I decided TODAY that I am really, really through!! I did something really stupid today and again did not use my better judgement. I see the path I have gone down now very clearly.. and every time I...
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I'm so frustrated with myself as I continue to break promises to myself and do the things I know are wrong. I don't understand - I'm ready for some serious counseling. It seems I do well for a...
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Had a great day - tomorrow will actually be two weeks since I've been to the casino... a few close calls but overall things are pretty much in control!Hope all is well with everyone - must figure out...
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Okay - so I get out of my exercise class tonight and all the way through class and into my car all I could think about was the casino, the slots, the excitement (eventual disaster, of course) but...
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Well it has now been 7 days for me . . . I am moving along in the right direction again - ONE DAY AT A TIME. I made up my mind to NOT think beyond the one day . . that I can do!Hugs to all - and a...
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I feel like I don't have control of this crazy addiction; it's so frustrating I just want to be RID of it. I know the only way to stop is just to STOP. Never thought it would be so difficult. ...
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I have had a rough time lately; I know what I need to do but for some reason I am resisting doing it.... yet this addiction - when it has you in its control, is so connected to our self esteem.. It's...
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Well, it has been a long time since I've been on DS and right now I thought I'd put an Avitar on instead of my kitties - just for a change - - -and a new start!I've been on a roller coaster ride in...
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Well it's been ONE WEEK already - only 51 more to make it through the year GF. :] BUTOne day at a time -feeling a lot better and more in control. Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!...
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