smokeygirl
Status: Planning my week and struggling with urges to go and gamble again - - - talking myself out of it, even as we speak... but tough...
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Okay, so I was fine this morning - I don't have any intention of going to the casino, so that's good, but I'm feeling so bored right now even though I have plenty to do... it's a restless feeling and...
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Spending time this morning just figuring out how I will spend my weekend time - starting with my coffee, of course. :] I'm blocking out specific timeframes for things I have to do here in the house...
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Reached the end of the week - no problem; now the weekend. I was supposed to go up north for a cat show with some friends and due to the weather and a few other things, I decided not to go. So......
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Everything under control... Just had a friend mention the casino - I hadn't spoken to her in a long time. It gave me a sick feeling in my stomach, so I guess that's good. :] Just for today I will...
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Day Three already - just taking it slow and I'm in control - just for today I will NOT gamble! I plan to write daily, but not become obsessed with the counting of the days. baby steps... :] Hugs...
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Today is better than yesterday and the day before! I feel less ashamed and bad about myself than I did after the weekend. . . I know that staying away hour by hour, day by day is the ONLY way to...
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Well, here I am checking in to this site again - - -and actually creating a journal entry! It has been since last October - - I have been up and down with this again and still struggling. I have...
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8 days now back in the groove - - I feel good again and I shared a lot of things with my husband - he is helping me stay on track - always reminding me that it's impossible for me to gamble...
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Today was a good day - no gambling or thoughts of going. JUST FOR TODAY I WILL NOT GAMBLE! Feel better writing that down - there's got to be a way out and I'm going to find it (again)! Can't...
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I have gone over this road so many times it makes me sick - I'm not happy with myself right now - I guess I just have not "got it". I thought I had it all figured out for a while, but I'm back to...
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So far so good - it's been about two weeks now - no casino. So confusing and tormenting to go back to that existence. Have gone back and forth a little lately, but like myself much better without...
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For some reason lately, friends that I have had for many years but may not have seen too recently have contacted me to get together and catch up. Three people in particular - - - and it has been...
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Back amongst the living this morning - I will take one step at a time- will survive this craziness!
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Unfortunately, I have to accept reality - reality is that I can't gamble in a controlled way - - - - this is just one of those things I have to TOTALLY STAY AWAY FROM and I know that logically; I...
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Doing very badly - decided I would go to a GA meeting again. I know what's right and what I'm supposed to be doing but this monster takes over. The only way I can conquer it is with some help;...
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