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- I'm pretty sure I'm a social outcast because when new years comes around, I have nothing to do yet I want to go out and have fun so bad. It's the same with Halloween, I don't know if it's just rhode island but Halloween is the social event if the...
- Hi, I have a question for all you beepers out there...Today I went in the attic and found all this great artwork and poems and school work and pictures and accomplishments from my life. It was great! I thought I had lost all that stuff somewhere...
- When I get a friend request on here from a man I've never talked to and he's say ... 44 or 50 or something like that... and then I see his profile and he has young pretty women as friends that he "hugs" and says nice things to, I think he's a...
- I'm cringing to be near them and I don't know why. This happens every time my little sister has friends over. Why do I react this way? I feel uneasy and insecure and annoyed, very annoyed. So now the house is theirs! No respect for other people....
- Are you guys feeling a change in your mood because the season is changing?I don't know what it is, but these past four days or so I have this on edge feeling. I'm healthy and well and productive and going to school and generally happy...... yet I...
- MOODSCOPE.COM!My sister's bipolar friend turned me onto moodscope. I get an email everyday that tells real live stories and what he has to say is inspiring and thought provoking. Then comes the actual site. You log on, then you rate 0,1,2,3 for a...
- I am such an idiot and I'm crazy and no one is ever going to love me. I just wrote in my journal about how I see myself living in the future. I see myself living alone being alone and committing suicide, maybe sometime in my mid thirties. I'm not...
- They are so extreme. I can feel all of the very intense feelings every character feels. I can hear extreme manic sounds, like someone bashing something with a loud mallot over and Ivey again... Clang Clang Clang Clang! I hear PANIC rapid thoughts...
- Yesterday I woke up extremely depressed, had been depressed for days. But yesterday I was scared to go through out my day because I thought it might just get worse and I couldn't do it. So, I took a shot of five hour energy and my mood flip flopped...
- Everybody loves Facebook. Facebook puts me in a state of terror. I have around 500 "friends" on Facebook all from high school, college, life, lots of family my mom my dad my stepmom all my siblings cousins aunts uncles grandma... I don't talk to any...
- I have been really low lately. Went into a depression. Today I got desperate and took a shot of five hour energy. Within minutes I was feeling great! Dancing and singing and feeling fabulous. My room was a total mess al my clothes everywhere and now...
- My mom just gave up on me, she doesn't known how else to handle me when I'm in this state. I feel strong anger and anxiety and pain and misery with that feeling I feel like I want to hurt myself. I've been having flashbacks of all the times I got...
- I just watched a vampire show and it was exhilarating because I'm reading the twilight series for the second time. But there were some brief erotic scenes which stunned me and made me feel discomfort. Sex scares me. That's my first reaction. I know...
- I'm disgusting. My mom started yoga and meditation when I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and it is the only thing that keeps her centered and able to have a relationship with me. FUCK I just talked my mom about how going to the gym didn't help...
- I have been crying in my bed before I go to sleep more often lately. I'm not sure if me possibly pmsing has anything to do with my overall state these past couple days but I'm falling apart. Today I felt aggitated aggravated irritated and angry. I...