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Status: "One of the greatest freedoms is when you realize what you can't control." Michael J Fox
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I am feeling better about the upcoming math instructor position. I will try to be prepared a day at a time so I don't feel overwhelmed. :) Today was awful, and Fathers Day dealing with the...
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I will end my job at the computer lab/ learning lab because the woman I've covered for is returning from maternity leave. So they asked me to teach. I originally applied to this job over a year...
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Thanks so much for nice replies to my journal. My online friends ((((HUG)))). I am in a fit over being offered to teach a math class, and I am reconsidering. I got skipped over for the new...
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2 weeks since I last saw my ex, aside from 5 minutes on his birthday. I am so glad he sent flowers for my aunt's passing. Our family seems so small. My other aunt came in from Utah and it was...
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Today I laid in bed and cried. Monday morning Mom told me my Aunt was gone, died from cancer. There was relief because she was suffering so much the last week. The shock is starting to wear off...
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Well I made it through yesterday, ex's birthday. I did drop him off some juice and gave him what he said he wanted for his birthday - a hug. And I did my day. I went to a new Al Anon meeting...
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I called the ex and we argued, and I didnt' know dad could hear (he's hard of hearing) and dad yelled at me and said he didn't want to hear it. Humiliation, embarassment, another wake up call just...
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I'm eating locally grown lettuce in my salad, from the local college Farm Store. It's wonderful. Today at counseling she told me if I don't decide to stay away from him in the next month then the...
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The comments on my journal really touch me. Thank you. I submitted a copy of the interview I did with Dick the AA oldtimer (59 years sober in less than a month) in the Alcholism discussion...
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I went to counseling Thursday and I was confronted with just how frustrated I have been. I cried a lot and just felt uncomfortable. She was asking me what I want to do about the ex - stay and be...
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I cried this morning. It felt good to get out the frustration. An accumulation of little things... set off by canceling my counseling appointment tomorrow. The bus is not convenient for that...
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I am so grateful I had jobs the last several months that allowed me to be online here. I really don't now, and only am doing update maintenance of posting jounals and viewing DS friends' journals....
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Today I kept busy despite the invite from the ex. I talked to him yesterday and it just leads to frustration. I did stuff for me... washed car, AA meeting where I got to lead (start sharing),...
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I'm glad I got to see my counselor yesterday. I realize how I need to care for myself right now instead of investing in the ex, which is draining. He did listen to my complaints Sunday about his...
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I missed my normal meetings this weekend. The *&%$ started to hit the fan for me today. It's like little things got to me, or maybe they're big things, they just did me in emotionally. First,...
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