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Status: "One of the greatest freedoms is when you realize what you can't control." Michael J Fox
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The weight of the world can feel heavy, and it's not my burden to bear, I must remember, and turn it over to God. Today is dad's bday and he's a little sad at the hospital - worried, weak, sick, a...
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I am so grateful for my counselor. I am gaining a lot of insight about how my boundaries aren't quite respected with Mr Now. It is real important for me to notice because it is not healthy for...
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Thank you all for the overwhelming support here as I reach out while my dad is ill. He's slowly getting better. I found some stuff on the internet. One of the causes of hemolysis (breaking down...
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I really appreciate the comments on my journal. They are very helpful and supportive and I need that. Me and Mr Now went to an out of the way MA meeting. He's in school to be a drug and alcohol...
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I got very upet reading from my diaries from a year ago, and reading about the emotional abuse from my ex, and how he denied it. I read about people saying he shared personal things about me in our...
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Young People's AA dance last night. My first of their event - I'm 37 and he's 39, so we were the grandma and the grandpa of the bunch, but there had to be a few hundred people, and we danced a...
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I made a phone call to find out about the sesonal position I usually do. The place is corrupt, and I have had such issues there, and being a usually nonconfrontational person it is probably better...
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I notice moreso the last year or so besides usual PMS oversensitivity and moodiness, I seem to have a bit midcycle - now - add to this I ate much of a huge bag of chocolate candy bars for Halloween -...
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On way to work before 8am there's my ex walking, probably leaving some girls house. We saw and ignored eachother. Too much reality. Sigh. Work was good, to sub for a sociology class. I hope...
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It's kinda nice to have some free time the first time since teaching since June, now that I am doing a class for the 2nd time. Both students in the class are receiving B's after their midterm...
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On Friday Mr I don't know, he'd been making me a ceramic cup, as he is an artist. He told me he finished it and he wanted to give it to me, and I said "OK". He said he thinks I'm "Awesome" and...
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Real grateful for counseling today. I learned that as a survivor of domestic violence, I have this tendency to be "defensive", it sort of makes sense. That part of our brain that deals with...
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Friday night I'd dreamed of me and this guy, that I was driving from the passenger seat, and pulling out and backed up and we fell into a deep dark hole in the earth. Anyway through emails this...
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I did some good crying a couple nights ago. I'm amazed at how much stuff is still coming up over my last relationship. It is time I tell this last guy I met for coffee a few times, Mr I don't...
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A little bitchy PMS-ey - it's ok especially if I am aware of it so I give myself a break. I went to a work meeting and training workshops, which are motivating :) I went to an AA meeting as I...
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