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Status: "One of the greatest freedoms is when you realize what you can't control." Michael J Fox
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I've settled into some resentment towards the ex and his "lady friends" and I really need to do some spiritual writing on these - they are dangerous for us alcoholics/addicts. My sponsor left on a...
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I went to the hot springs today and soaked in a mineral bath and used the mud body mask and baked in the sun a little. It was nice. The grounds are surrounded by lush greenery and palm trees. I...
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I truly appreciate the journal comments. I have been keeping my own written diaries since childhood and it is really neat to have peoples supportive perspective and understanding. I spent...
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I went to my 20th High School reunion last night. I was so nervous, I almost left. I sat in the car with the radio until the place filled up a bit. It was nice, everyone was nice. I was slow in...
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I got up way too early. I wonder if it's because today is finals and maybe my last day of work? The supervisor dropped off my students surveys and comments yesterday - I was a little...
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I got a call back that an inteview yesterday won't lead to a job for me. I felt defensive "what do they know?" - a character challenge of mine (defensiveness). I wasn't feeling real crazy about...
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I got a phone message from my ex last night - and deleted it (first one in 2 weeks). I guess I am not "out of the woods". The "It's called a breakup because it's broken" book suggests a 60 day...
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Some weirdness. I wanted to write about this guy, Mr from out of town but used to live here, and well how I feel drawn to him, and how I got out my "He's just not that into you book" when I felt...
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As I get through this psychology class and more into the "meat" of the subject, it is quite neat. I see the prepared final they have for us and how it doesn't fairly represent the scope of the...
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I felt optimistic today. The book on "It's called a breakup because it's broken" (Greg Behrendt) is really hitting home, and I see how in the last 3 months, the first two months I did not respond...
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I am continuing to not hear from the ex which is painful but necessary to move on. I am sad about the loss of our fellow in AA - his sponsor, who was surprizingly well known for his writing. I am...
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Saturday night was just awful as I yelled at my ex on the phone over and over to leave me alone - the day he heard the news his sponsor had committed suicide. Not the nicest thing on my part. I read...
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I went to a memorial service of an MA friend yesterday. It was good to see other MA'ers and have us all come together with our own concept of a higher power at a very religious catholic service. ...
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No ice cream tonight, after about a week of either ice cream or cookies nightly - a lot of it. Funny the local ice cream place is closing down tonite (rent increase). Ex is still persistently...
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Journal reading from a year ago reminds me how long and hard I've suffered when I know my ex's issues and stayed, or went back, repeatedly. So emotionally abusive. I am somehow drawn to...
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