hope20z
Status: Those with a mental illness are usually the highest in intellect.
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I feel so heavy again. The weight of my world is on my shoulders. I think that I am stressing about school, finances, friends, family and my volunteer position. Anything that I can possibly worry...
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School is coming up soon and I am excited to get started on the Spring semester. I was looking through some of my old documents and I am pumped to start to become me again. Ever since high school I...
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Things got better. I went to bed last night at about 9:00pm. I suppose it was due to the depression and just exhaustion. I got a wonderful card from my father with my Christmas gift. It was really...
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I used to be so excited on Christmas Eve. Though recently I have found that its getting more and more depressing. Maybe if I have children this event will become great once again. I cant understand...
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See this is what I am talking about. I cleaned the oven the other day and there was soap scum left from the toxic cleaners. Tonight she got all upset because of it, if I didn't want to bake something...
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I love the children's books that my parents used to read to me. I find them comforting and I have recently started buying some back. If I was ever to have children I would want to read then the same...
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OMG I just wrote an entire journal entry and I closed the window. I was saying that my suicidal inclinations are dwindling slowly. Although, they are still prominent I feel better about them. There...
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I want to kill myself. I have the means and the drive to do it. I can't remember why I have such a desire to do this but I still seem to be curious as to why I want to. I am so depressed and I want...
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I am more suicidal right now than I have been in a long time. I don't know what is wrong, I obsess about it. In my head I keep thinking about what I may writ in my letter, first being that the letter...
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Still at dads. I am questioning the fact that my stepmother is making food that I wont eat. Like squid salad or she just tells me that she is only making dinner for my father and no one else, she...
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I have to ask the question of is this really journaling or am I blogging? I write my thoughts, concerns and everything in between, and it is out there for people, like me, to read and write their own...
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It's been so long since I have written. Tomorrow is my last day of school for the semester. I take the final in the Disability Resource Center. As of yesterday I am back at my dad's house, it's nice...
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Oh my gosh it seems to have been so long since I last had a journal entry I hate all of these family events and things because I feel so badly around then... like I am a failure. but I keep wondering...
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I can't believe that I am still at my mom's house, I want to go home, I want to go home to my dad's. I cant believe that my best friend is still no talking to me. I dont know what happened. I dream...
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I want to have a wedding. I want to get married to someone who loves me. The only back lash is that we live in a country that denies homosexuals the right to get married. In some sates we get the...
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