hope20z
Status: Those with a mental illness are usually the highest in intellect.
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Sometime I don't trust myself with myself. I feel inadequate to others around me. Others preach their ways of living and not being depressed or anxious, but I cannot follow the rules of others. I...
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I don't know who to turn to. I feel so depressed and anxious, all of the time. I have tried to tell my mother but she doesn't listen to me. She simply brushes it off with a "think positively." I...
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I don't know what is wrong with me, but I am becoming different again and I can feel it. I want to sleep through the days but I am too anxious to do so. No I find myself with nothing better to do...
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Today was somewhat uneventful. I drove around with my mom and dad and I looked a houses to buy and to rent. the rewarding part of this was the diner afterwords. After the tour of greater Denver area...
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Yesterday I got a phone call from Martin+Osa and they extended an invitation to hire me. I don't start till the 16th but still I have a job now. This has made me so happy! I can't wait to start and...
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It is sad to know that I cannot feel what is going on around me. I cannot go forward without having this feeling of being pulled back by some force. I want to start to maintain a journal in a book on...
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I don't know what is wrong with me. I can't stop shaking, damn this lithium. I am over these drugs. I can't take it any more. All I want to do is sleep forever. I have this passion to do so much but...
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I have been fighting myself this enire time and I cant seem to put that stop to it. I don't know how to find myself. Who am I? Why do I have to go through this? I can harly type because I am...
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i just learned that my car is going to be $2600 in the repairs that they are doing. Then I hear that more work needs to be done at over $1300 more. I am so stressed about that, but I know that I...
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The days are so much easier now. I am feeling so good that I am going to go up to Gunnison (weather permitting) to spend time with my dad, Chi and Ti. I cant wait to go and see them and hang out. I...
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I don't know why, but I keep thinking about ways to end my life. I can't explain it. I think it is because I feel that I am disposable and that I don't feel that am unimportant to the world. I get so...
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I am still somewhat without a job and feeling more depressed than ever. I don't know if it is loneliness or if it has to do with my dad and his new family. I am also really anxious about my job and...
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Today I quit my job and now I eel like shit. I have a meager amount of money to last me until i find another job that will suit me. But that is not the point. The point is that I have failed at...
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For some reason I keep getting hit by things that happen in life. This morning my dad came into my room and told me that my grandfather had passed away and we needed to fly back home. I don't know...
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I love the journal online. I love the fact that others can pose some suggestions for me. But, lately I have been considering moving to a paper journal. Something more structured and that I can...
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