OMG I just wrote an entire journal entry and I closed the window. I was saying that my suicidal inclinations are dwindling slowly. Although, they are still prominent I feel better about them. There is not a lot of weight on my shoulders anymore, but I am still pretty down. I think that the talk my father gave me helped me a lot. He told me open my heat and to let new friends in. That is exactly what I want to do. I am lonely and confused and the only friend that is close to me here is Denver does not want anything to do with me. The friends that I have made I have either isolated myself from them or talk to them sparingly. Although, I must say the times that I am around my new friends we do great things. We go to great bars and lounges, we go to great movies and best of all we go to the theatre, since the tickets at $10 per student with an ID. They tickets are usually $56. I have gone to two already this winter season and I look forward to seeing more in the near future. The theatre and the ballet. On Wednesday evening my mom is taking me to the Nutcracker. The curtain is at 6:30pm so that gives us plenty of time to do diner and drinks before and/or after the opera. I have to go to dinner now. Goodnight.