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Status: Those with a mental illness are usually the highest in intellect.
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I am beginning to lose it again. I am missing more and more classes and I am losing interest in some of them completely. I am so confused, getting more and more depressed and confused. I smoke pot in...
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Last night was a blank. I smoked pot with Rachael again and this pot totally took me down. I was practically disabled by it. We ate dinner and watched a movie and then I stayed over at her house...
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I spent the night at Rachael's last night. It was a blast. We went all over Denver during the day and looked at the court houses and the capitol, something I haven't done in a while. Then we went to...
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Last night I got a room at the Hotel Monaco in downtown Denver. Its one of the best so I invited Rachael to come and stay. I spent a fortune on the hotel room and the beautiful dinner we had. We then...
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Today at school was a great day it wasn't until later in the afternoon at home. Chau (my step mom) and I had an argument and my father stepped in an told her to that I was his sum and there is...
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Recently I have been having some suicidal ideation. Mostly I am thinking about jumping off of something. I think that the fall would be exhilarating, I think that I would go through a stage of regret...
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Colorado finally passed a medical marijuana bill allowing some with certain issues to be able to buy and grow marijuana. Out of nowhere I went to a doctor and got a marijuana license. I bought an 8th...
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Well this weekend was not as bad as I thought it would be. I didn't get sick at mom's and I got all of my homework done. I am sitting at a computer in the computer lab at CU. I have been here for a...
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I am with my mom and my uncle watching the red carpet of the golden globe awards. I am anxious about the day tomorrow, I think that I am anxious because it is a Monday and I am afraid to begin the...
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I am so tired . I am tired with life. What if I was gone? what would I miss? When looking at Buddhism the though of reincarnation is to live your current life as best as possible in order to become...
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Last night I posed a question on the bipolar discussion board regarding the social security insurance or the disability insurance. I want to know what the process is like. I was called to see their...
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I am spending the weekend with my mom up in the highlands area. In the morning I am going to try to catch a bus to the school so I can do some reading that needs to get done before the weekend end....
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What if I am suicidal and know one knows it. I have been realizing, slowly, that I am quite suicidal. It is the alternative to everything that I do, everything that is me. If I worry about financial...
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It's a beautiful Friday morning and I have nothing to do, I don't know where to go, especially without a car. I think that I may take a train ride up to the park meadows mall. I have not been on that...
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How bad does it actually have to get before we feel the real need to end our own life? It differs for me as to what I should be doing with my life and who my friends are and so on. I am in debt like...
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