NM

I am with my mom and my uncle watching the red carpet of the golden globe awards. I am anxious about the day tomorrow, I think that I am anxious because it is a Monday and I am afraid to begin the week. Tomorrow, I think that the class is going on a walking tour of some of Denver. It for project number two and I am hoping that it is a good experience for me. I am trying not to drink tonight so I can easily wakeup tomorrow morning with ease and get coffee and go. God, I have been talking pills for so long. I can't believe that my body has actually taken to the medication. Now that I try to come off of the medication I am seeing the world skewed. I am sick, I take my pills because I am ill and the pills are working against me, however, now that I have been taking the pills for three years my body is used to their effects and when I attempt to change it my body hates me. Tomorrow during class I will take a xanax to try to relieve any anxiety. Thursday, I have another exam in theatre and I am not looking forward to it. I don't know how you can test on something like theatre, a subject that I have not learned anything structured or standard in. I don't know why I care so much. Right now I don't plan to go to grad school so I don't need to worry about grades because, if I graduate I will have a degree and no one will really see my grades... why am I writing this, does this matter? If I die am I going to be judged on these journal entries? Will anyone ever even find them if I am not here. I am anonymous here, no one knows me and sometime maybe I will reveal myself someday. OK the Oscars are beginning and I am tired of writing for the day. 
 
Good night moon.