hope20z
Status: Those with a mental illness are usually the highest in intellect.
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Tonight was horrible. Today was good. Good lecture and good lab, but once I got home shit his the fan. Chi has been video taping us and it is really eerie so I told her to stop and she did but she...
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So here is an update that I did not see coming. While at my mom's I suppose things have gotten worse and my dad's wife is going to go to work about two hours from here and so she will be staying...
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I wish more people read my journals like they used to. I post mostly for my own benefit, but I also sometimes like the suggestions and the help that comes from friends. I have been thinking a lot...
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Today my mom came to my dad's house to pick me up for the weekend. My stepmother has been acting out of control lately, she is jealous about my mother and I think about me too. She has literally...
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I am still feeling the urge of suicide. It comes and goes, I am not thinking at about it all day as I have been in the past. Yesterday Ti and I went and bout fireworks and him, his friends and I went...
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I am at school again. No classes today but I am trying to get some work done. However, I am not getting anything done. I think that I am going to go home and look over some power-point slide for the...
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I don't know what's happening anymore. I am looking for some answers. If I don't want to kill myself I want to run away. But I still want to kill myself. I am still feel so depressed. On the train...
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Class got out early because the test review was so short. So I cant to the computer lab to do some writing and some printing. I have to print some power points for studding for Environmental Science....
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I went out and bought a real journal the other day and started to write in it, but I just feel safer and more comfortable writing here, where you all can read and comment and I can save forever. Last...
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I write checks. I write them to doctors that I don't see anymore. Then I give the carbon copies to my dad for reimbursement. I have so much debt in credit and I am scared and need money to distribute...
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I think things are becoming OK. I had my last appointment with Dr Power, she is no longer a resident and has chosen to work at the VA hospital and she's pregnant so I think that she will become a...
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For some reason my Vietnamese stepmother thinks that she is the only one who loves my father. This evening she gave me a lecture about how his back is hurting him and how she wanted to work for hem...
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I want a real career. I want to go and jump into the world. I love school and I think that its good to continue to learn no matter what. I want to contribute my education through the university...
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Sometimes loneliness really gets to me. I get distracted with friends and it can, in some way, make me sane again. But, my friendships don't last long. They end up stopping quickly. Or my friends...
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I don't know what I am feeling anymore, nor what I want to feel. I am stuck in a place in life that I am unfamiliar with. I am falling deeper in debt every day, I am in between semesters at school...
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