She should be ashamed.
Class got out early because the test review was so short. So I cant to the computer lab to do some writing and some printing. I have to print some power points for studding for Environmental Science. I think that I should consult one of these groups about suicide. I want some input on how to beat it. There has go to be a way. But, I don't want them simply to keep giving me simple ways to get out of it when I really want to use it as a way out. It is a therapeutic feeling for me. I dream of falling off a skyscraper. Such a huge rush and then an ending to what is an extremely painful life.
In class I felt so sick and I was going to leave but I am still here. I thought that I would simply go to the computer lab and see what I can write. Chau is a Buddhist and she is so hurtful, the words that comes out of her mouth, she is worse than some of my friends. Maybe it is because she is so jealous of the relationship that my dad and I have. But, I have been his son for my entire life and of course he is going to love me differently than her. I am his blood and his piece of work. He has taught me how to ride a bike, drive a car, ski, cook and the list goes on. I don't know shy she thinks differently and I don't know what she is defensive toward me. What am I don't wrong? I am only trying to make things better and it does is make her mad, mean and sour. I don't like her and I just just stay completely away from her. It wont be hard seeing that she only cooks and cleans after my dad. It's disgusting, there is no family here, she should be ashamed of herself.
I kinda wish that I was going through ta manic episode right now. I could use the happiness. But, I know that I am in a major depressed episode. I just want to go home and cry. I keep googleing suicide and the such and I want to know how many people killed themselves to day is that freaky? I think that I am going to go to a chat room that might help.
In class I felt so sick and I was going to leave but I am still here. I thought that I would simply go to the computer lab and see what I can write. Chau is a Buddhist and she is so hurtful, the words that comes out of her mouth, she is worse than some of my friends. Maybe it is because she is so jealous of the relationship that my dad and I have. But, I have been his son for my entire life and of course he is going to love me differently than her. I am his blood and his piece of work. He has taught me how to ride a bike, drive a car, ski, cook and the list goes on. I don't know shy she thinks differently and I don't know what she is defensive toward me. What am I don't wrong? I am only trying to make things better and it does is make her mad, mean and sour. I don't like her and I just just stay completely away from her. It wont be hard seeing that she only cooks and cleans after my dad. It's disgusting, there is no family here, she should be ashamed of herself.
I kinda wish that I was going through ta manic episode right now. I could use the happiness. But, I know that I am in a major depressed episode. I just want to go home and cry. I keep googleing suicide and the such and I want to know how many people killed themselves to day is that freaky? I think that I am going to go to a chat room that might help.
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