Killing me softly...

I don't know what I am feeling anymore, nor what I want to feel. I am stuck in a place in life that I am unfamiliar with. I am falling deeper in debt every day, I am in between semesters at school and I am living with my dad, in the process of moving and that situation is stressful enough, all of this burden is put on to my shoulders for the TV  and the internet and cell phone service. I am staying at my moms during the evenings to watch over my dog Sam, but I really want to go to my dads so I can fiddle with the new TV system. 
 
Katie is in town and never told me of her return, I had to hear it from Rachael, who tonight is insistent upon staying at my mom's house with me. I don't like to hear that news through a third party. They all want to get together tomorrow and go to the park and i just want to be alone at my house. Ti does that too he will cut himself off and stay at home all day. 
 
Suicidal thoughts are still there, especially when I think of my financial situation. But I am hoping they will subside quickly. I am still sleepwalking and waking up in some different places, but not too much of this, the massive doses of seroquel that I take pretty much knock me out. So let me go out of my mind peacefully. 
 
Goodnight Moon.