freedomatlonglast

 We are all here on this board together, because something is calling us from the pain we know to a life filled with fulfillment, peace and ease. It is a step of faith that we all take...     ...

I am still very angry and unsure why. Yes, I am partially mad at myself. I am mad that I have not moved on with my life in any way shape or form since Feb. I have not changed careers to do something...

I feel this sick, icy dread in the pit of my stomach. Almost as if I am going to puke, fear scratching at the back of my throat. I changed my number and now there really is no going back. I have had...

I miss him. I miss him. I miss him. and I hate him for missing him. I had to acknowledge this feeling so that I can let it go...

I just returned from spending the weekend with him. I feel wasted, like I just escaped from an icy-refrigerator. I was kept just warm enough to survive, but so cold I became numb. I have returned...

I am seeing the guy I dated briefly after I broke up with my ex. I don't want to see him. So much has changed.He has no idea I went back to my ex or the inner torment that it brought me. He does not...

I am just really upset right now. However, I can't pin point it to one reason. It is a cornucopia of reasons. I am on vacation right now. Actually today is my last day, and I am packing up and...

Today was our anniversary. I was supposed to see him this evening, but I bailed at the last minute claiming I was tired. It didn't matter anyhow, because I guess I gave him the flu the night of his...

I am copying and pasting this from the board, so I don't lose it:  I have been avoiding posting here because I feel like a hypocrite. I went back to my ex. There I said it... Whew!  You have no...

I am having a hard day today. My ex is in a painful situation. His neck has several degenerating disks and he most likely bed-ridden (I don't know because I have not spoken to him). I do know that he...

I want this to be a warm and fuzzy post, a loving post filled with hope and light, but it won't come. It is bogged down under all of this shit that I have been trying to bury for the last three weeks...

I have painfully come to the realization that this man will not remove himself from my life, will not change and refuse to have any sympathy for myself or my goals. I know this to the core of my...

I am almost scared to write this here... So ashamed and embarrassed to admit I slipped. I don't even want to tell my therapist, but I know I have to get this poison out of me if I want to continue to...

As I was cleaning my bedroom, I began to realize I was getting more and more angry, resentful and stirred up inside.  I would always stay at my ex's house when we were together. It always seemed...

It is really late here... The middle of the night. Everything is silent, and even my dog has abandoned me to go sleep somewhere where the whirring of the computer or my ipad won't keep him awake. It...