freedomatlonglast

I am on my way to a wedding... And I am listening to Pandora while I am getting ready... When this one song came on... Heaven by Warrant... ... And a flood of memories came rushing back to me... My...

This day marks both his birthday... And NC for 176 days. Almost 6 months!!! I never thought I would see that happen... And yet here I am, alive to tell the tale.   I have always wished him a Happy...

I had the weirdest dream the last night of my trip...  I had a dream that I met the future man I would love and marry. I was handed this box by a worker of God's, an angel of sorts. I opened the box...

I am sad today. I really miss him. I went and had my nails done this morning. In the back, the TV was playing a show about the native foods of Alaska. That is where he is right now. I am both...

It has been a long time since I have written here. I went into a place of quiet... A time of reflection and rest after emotional stress. I needed distance, and to hear the sound of the waves crashing...

Please excuse the lack or formatting, grammar and spelling, as I am on my phone. And I am all thumbs!! For the sake of brevity, i am not going to bother to capitalize, as i have less than 15mins. to...

     There is this thing called emotional addiction. I am not talking about just any addiction, but an actual change in our cells that cause us to become addicted to certain situations, people...

It has been months since I felt this good, this free! I finally signed up for a support group for survivors of narcissistic abuse. We will see if it works. They are supposed to teach you tools to...

I really want to break no contact... I am not even sure why. What I hope to gain. Nothing good can come of it. I really need to move on with my life, and heal. I went out with some friends last night...

Dear M,     WTF??? I don't get you, not at all... Three months ago I was the love of your life, the person you wanted to be with until you died. You 'realized' you had been in love with me all...

  I am having massive panic attacks about seeing my father tonight. I feel major guilt about not wanting to see him. I want to celebrate my birthday, but not like this...    I am afraid of his...

I have been dealing a lot with suicidal thoughts lately... Not so much the act, but the thoughts of this as a possibility. It disturbs me because I made a conscious choice that I was not going to...

Wow. I am really spinning right now...   After finding out my ex was seeing OW when I was NC (and he swore he wasn't), I decided to do the responsible thing and get an STD check. I get them...

I just realized today that I have been avoiding my pain. I gained weight while I was with my ex, 20lbs to be exact, over the course of four months. I was hardly even seeing him, but I realized even...

When things fall apart, consider the possibility that life knocked it down on purpose. Not to bully you, or to punish you, but to prompt you to build something that better suits your personality and...