Confrontations

I am seeing the guy I dated briefly after I broke up with my ex. I don't want to see him. So much has changed.He has no idea I went back to my ex or the inner torment that it brought me. He does not know about my parent's and their rocky relationship, nor does he know about my sister's falling out with my father, the work I need to nurture or the time I am needing to myself. He does not know these things because I have not told him. 
 
Once I realized he was not the kind of person I wanted in my life, I pushed him away. I feel guilty for not telling him months ago that we were not eight foe each other. I hate, hate, hate these conversations and have avoided them all my life. I did everything I could do to avoid confrontation and disappointing others. I think this is why I have disapponted myself so much, I never spoke up on my own behalf if it rocked the boat!
 
So tonight I am going out to tell him that I would much rather be friends. It sucks and feels like a waste of my time to spend an evening telling someone I know longer wish to see them. However, I know I am not respecting myself if I do not act in accordance with my values, to treat others as I would want to be treated, with the realization that they are human  too.