FallenAngel

The party on Saturday was a blast.  Everyone had so much fun and the kids had me laughing all day.  They set up a slip and slide with three tarps I had laying around.  Then they decided to use...

Ahh, Saturday morning and I managed to sleep in until almost 9 a.m.  I woke up at my regular time, 6 a.m, and decided to go back to sleep.  I'm so glad I don't have to go to work.  I've got plenty...

I'm so sad today.  I made it through work ok, but now the tears are flowing and I'm feeling so lost.  Each day I move forward I realize more deeply that Gene is really gone and it hurts even...

I'm so sad today.  I made it through work ok, but now the tears are flowing and I'm feeling so lost.  Each day I move forward I realize more deeply that Gene is really gone and it hurts even...

I live my life moment by moment these days.  Looking any further ahead than that brings on feelings of dread and sadness.  Living these past months without Gene has been the hardest thing I've ever...

Well, I finished painting the foundation yesterday.  It's one of those things I only want to ever have to do but once.  What a mess!  I'm still trying to get all the paint off of me.  My next...

I've made it through another week of work.  Somedays I don't know how I even get there, though.  Yesterday was the first day in over 4 months that I didn't cry.  I even managed to talk about Gene...

I haven't journaled in a couple of days because I've been feeling pretty bad and have been trying to keep myself busy working around the house.  But thanks to all of you for your thoughts, prayers...

It's been four months, will I ever stop crying every morning upon waking?  I'm holding it back as I write determined to get through one day without the tears.  People tell me I'm moving forward,...

Yesterday marked four months since Gene's been gone.  It's been a bad week for me, but I'm still here.  I've been doing yard work as therapy.  It takes my mind off my grief and gives me a sense of...

I've fallen into a black hole of grief today.  Called in to work to tell them I wouldn't be in then went back to bed and just woke up, it's 11:51.  I don't want to be up, I want to be sleeping away...

I want you all to know how much I appreciate your comments on my journal entries.  It's just been a bad couple of days for me but I'll catch up with everyone later in the week.  The kids are coming...

It's been a very hard weekend for me.  I've been crying on and off for the better of three days now.  Yesterday and today have been the worst.  I was already feeling bad yesterday when my...

I thought I was making steps in the right direction, but today I'm falling apart again.  I woke up crying and now I can't seem to stop.  I miss Gene every moment of every day and it doesn't seem to...

I started to wash Gene's clothes that have been lying in the laundry room for the last three months.  I was anxious about how I would get through doing it, but I managed to get two loads washed,...