FallenAngel

Still riding the emotional rollercoaster of grief.  Yesterday was not a good day.  Sometimes I just wake up crying and can't stop.  I'm just going through the motions of living missing Gene every...

One year, 4 months and I'm still just going through the motions of living.  I miss Gene so much that my heart aches everyday.  I still keep thinking he'll come back one day.  I pretend that he's...

What a long week this has been.  Work has been really slow.  It's either feast or famine for me and the famine just drives me crazy.  So, this morning I have nothing to do.  Can't keep my mind...

I don't know how much more of this I can take.  Everytime I think of Gene my heart breaks all over again.  I miss him more and more each day that passes.  I can't sleep and I have horrible anxiety...

I had the strangest thing happen last night.  I dreamed that Gene was sitting on the side of the bed holding my hand...it was so real and he was telling me everything was OK.  Then, in the middle...

It never seems to end, the grief, the pain, the heartache of losing Gene continues everyday.  The holidays only make it worse and seem to set me back by months.  The 4th of July was especially hard...

I feel so alone today and I can't figure out why.  I guess because it's a family holiday with picnics and barbeques and I'm sitting here all alone.  It's also the date that Gene and I originally...

It's been a tough ride still.  I miss Gene so much and have dreamed about him for the last two nights.  I hate waking up to the fact that he's not there.  The dreams are so real and so comforting,...

Oh my love, I miss you so much.  Today is our 22nd wedding anniversary and you are not here with me.  I don't know how much more I can take some days.  I cry and grieve over your loss more than...

Tomorrow will be our 22nd wedding anniversary, and I'm already crying.  I miss Gene so much sometimes I simply can't stand it.  I think of him every day, especially in the morning when I wake up...

Well, it's been some time since I've written anything in my journal.  Thought it a good time to update.  I'm doing okay but I still have my bad days and each birthday, anniversary, etc. seems to...

It's been a while since I've wrote anything here.  I'm still pretty much just getting by with life.  I miss Gene everyday and cry most days.  I'm hating my job because it's so boring and there...

Well, my mother got out of the hospital on Wednesday.  Her legs looked great but after just two days they are getting red and sore again.  The nurse was here today and said she needs to spend more...

Yes, we are supposed to get more snow tomorrow night and into Tuesday morning.  Hopefully it will be just a few inches which would be a blessing.  The sun is shining here today and it's a warm 37...

It's still snowing like crazy outside and I've been house bound for the past week.   The only time I got out was to go to counseling and then the snow started again on Wednesday.  My office has...