FallenAngel

I feel as though the "fog" I've heard about after losing someone is beginning to lift.  I'm feeling worse instead of better this weekend.  I've spent the better part of both days in bed sleeping...

OK.  So I went out to finish mowing the grass I started yesterday before the rain came and it was a fiasco!  The belt on the riding mower popped off and I noticed it had a tear in it.  No big...

Well, it's been a really hard week but I've made it through if only moment by moment.  I'm feeling rather sad this morning and missing Gene so much.  I only got to work two days last week, but it...

Well, I've managed to sleep through most of the day because being awake is just too hard today.  My first wedding anniversary without Gene is by far the hardest day yet.  I made it through his...

This past weekend was very hard.  Gene and I met on Memorial Day 24 years ago.  We were both invited to a "family" picnic by friends.  Gene knew I would be there, but I didn't know he would.  I...

Woke up crying again this morning.  I was dreaming of Gene again and I didn't want to wake up because then I feel so sad and overwhelmed.  I cried for about two hours then decided to drag myself...

OK.  I'm doing much better today.  After I signed off yesterday I got my butt out and mowed my own grass.  My neighbor and his son have been doing it for me since Gene died.  All I can say is I'm...

Just got home from work and I'm missing Gene so much the tears are just flowing.  I miss everything about him, his touch, his kiss, his voice.  How do I go on without him, I just don't know.  This...

One more day to make a whole week at work.  I've again managed to keep myself busy, so it's been easier this week.  I woke up crying again this morning.  I had a dream about Gene that he had his...

One day I'm doing ok, then the next I feel like I've been hit by a train of sorrow and tears.  I've managed to stay pretty  busy at work this week, and that certainly helps.  Being bored at work...

I'm not doing so bad today.  I made it through work without crying.  It helped alot that I was busy most of the day.  It's the boring days that really get to me right now, but they always have. ...

It's raining this morning, slow and steady.  Pretty much how I feel I'm getting along, slow but not so steady.  Lately all I want to do is sleep.  I've been laying down every afternoon for about...

It's been seven weeks since Gene's death.  Just writing those words brings on the pain again.  It's the reality of it all that hits me so hard and brings the tears flowing.  The house is so quiet...

I had a dream about Gene last night and although i don't remember the details I woke up crying this morning.  I called in to work and told them I wouldn't be in.  I'm doing the best I can but some...

Well, I made it through another day.  One more and I'll have made a whole week at work.  Cried this morning before I left, but haven't felt overwhelmed at all today.  One step forward, now just...