It's raining this morning, slow and steady.  Pretty much how I feel I'm getting along, slow but not so steady.  Lately all I want to do is sleep.  I've been laying down every afternoon for about two hours.  I do feel a little better when I get up, so maybe it's just my body's way of dealing with all it's going through right now.  I got outside yesterday and set up my fountain out front, did some much needed laundry, ran to the store--everyday things that now seem so hard to do.  Yet at least I get a small sense of accomplishment.  Everyday that I manage to get out of bed is an accomplishment right now.  Not sure what I'll do today.  Maybe catch up on making some overdue phone calls. Right now all I want to do is crawl back in bed.  The tears are overwhelming me right now.  God, I miss Gene so much I don't know how my heart can take it.  It hurts so bad I just want to scream and I feel sick to my stomach.  How am I supposed to go on?  My whole life was wrapped around being with him, now my world has crashed around me and I have absolutely no idea what to do without him.  How am I supposed to go on?  I don't have a clue right now.  All I can do is cry.