Bad day

I had a dream about Gene last night and although i don't remember the details I woke up crying this morning.  I called in to work and told them I wouldn't be in.  I'm doing the best I can but some days its just impossible to stop crying and get myself to work.  I feel so physically and mentally exhausted today.  I try to lay down but I just start crying again, so decided to journal this morning and see if I couldn't feel just a little better.  I'd be better off trying to get out today and maybe do some yard work.  One step, one weed, one moment at a time.