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- This might sound crazy, but here goes. I have been really stressed out with work, kids, making plans, therapy, and most of all the anger this is dredging up. I haven't been sleeping well and I've been just blah. So I decided yesterday I need to find...
- So my middle daughter, the 15 year old, and I are talking tonight. Her sister was sleeping and dad was gone, so this is our time. We started out laughing about things my sister, the one who passed away, used to say and do and from there started...
- I am gearing up to leave, trying to cover my bases to ensure that my kids and I are as safe as possible in all ways before I go. In the meantime, I am trying to avoid engaging in potentially dangerous battles with him. Trying to just survive until I...
- In the grand scheme of things this is just a little thing, but damn is it annoying. I'm wondering if anyone else's does or did this, or what other irritating things they may do. My husband calls me several times throughout the day, I answer because...
- Okay, I'm not even sure how to phrase this, but I've been thinking a lot about how I personally got involved in a situation like this. I became the cliche--the child of a dysfunctional and abusive household; doomed to repeat the patterns. I repeated...
- So, I started this morning venting about my h's behavior and about my reaction...sigh. But I went to therapy at 1. I told the counselor I am ready to make a move. I don't realistically think that I can just up and leave the state and expect all to...
- So, I'm off work today as...shocker....I DO get a day off during the week since I work Saturdays. In fact, I have the SAME day off every single week, although every single week I go through the inquisition as if this is something he is not aware of...
- So last night I'm standing in the kitchen after his tirade, shaking and eyes burning from the battle not to cry when suddenly I realized I didn't really want to cry, I wasn't even really angry or particularly hurt. I was just reacting, letting his...
- I am thankful that I have been writing everyday...so much I think I may need a personal website soon :-) This simple practice has kept me focused and unable to become an ostrich again and pretend all is well, or at least not that bad. Unfortunately...
- So my h suddenly wants to file taxes together because he makes so much money he needs the write offs, besides he will get to keep it all....for the family. (That made me laugh so hard I cried :-)) .That is until I told him that was fine but he would...
- This was given to me today--a Golden Ticket--and I wanted to share the inspiring words written on the back of this with everyone who is feeling pretty stuck or hopeless or whatever uncomfortable and limiting emotion we are feeling in this moment....
- So, let me start this by saying that in the 18+ years I've known my h he had never once complimented me. Oh, he's made comments like"no one else can compare", but no honest compliments. So imagine my shock when he comes in the house tonight, I'm...
- This was another aspect that really struck a chord with me when I read it. Maybe it will with some of you also; who knows maybe it will help some of us to understand what exactly happens during these crazy times.Sabotage--the spontaneous disruption...
- So you know how out it is that you can often see the flaws in someone else's relationship and feel the outrage on their behalf more easily than your own? About 4 years ago my baby sister got involved with a piece of work. I won't go into all the...
- So I'll keep this short. Long"discussion"last night, about 4+ hours. He pulled out the big guns and said some pretty hurtful, evil things to which iTRIED not to respond too much. Anyway, after keeping me up badgering me until almost 3am, he asks me...