SearchingAndWaiting

Right, so, I'm on this site because of abstinance. I'm just going to say this: I really have a need for sexual exploration now. I really want that.I'm soooo... rrhhgghhg... frustrated! It's so...

Feeling so sad and lonely and scared. Have to make some pretty big "life" decisions on my own these days. Wish I could let go of what constrains me and let out all of my feelings and be embraced and...

I want to live in harmony with the world I live in.

If ANYONE can understand this!: Excerpts from a personality test I took on Yahoo a while back (the boldface is mine)..."For you, falling in love is like being reunited with the other part of...

Wow. I DO see myself as "special" when it comes to girls. At least more so these days. I genuinely try to make emotional connections with others. When I really talk to girl, it is not to try to GET...

Feeling sad and lonely. Wishing I could feel closer to someone. Someone with whom I could share my feelings and who would listen in such a way that would meet my need for acceptance.I have a desire...

I feel so alone. So very, very alone. I had the conviction a long time ago (even if it didn't come to me at a single moment) that it would be right to wait until marriage to have sex. And that I...

You don’t know what it’s like, attractive girl. To not date casually. To have never had a girlfriend.You have no idea.You, with your looks and your body and your hair. You, for whom picking up a...

I had created a blog about remaining sexually abstinant. I don't update it anymore, but I thought I'd repost an old entry here.Maybe it will resonate with someone out there?------[This was written...

I feel so sad. So alone. Like the world just doesn't understand what I am feeling and going through (or at least very few people do).I want so badly to experience sexuality with a girl (beyond...

Last night, I was at a party, and I saw a friend from high school. She has a "softer" demeanor to her, and I find that appealing.But she was wearing a LOW-cut shirt that really exposed her...

I've come to a realization.When I was younger, I wanted to experience sex, sure; but there was no way I was going to act on it before marriage. I didn't see doing it as a reality. So, when I...

Thank you to the person-- you know who you are-- who reminded me of the things I HAVEN'T had to contend with in not having sex: fears of pregnancy, STD's, and emotional turmoil from sex.That really...

I'm heartened to find people on this site who are in a similar boat to me. Who choose to wait to have sex and are dealing with difficult feelings about this vis-à-vis what "society" thinks about...