SearchingAndWaiting

I am blessed.(Grateful that there are people who want to help me and wish me well.)

I struggle with self-esteem, but yesterday I had an experience that served as kind of an affirmation. Yesterday, at one point I looked in the mirror and saw my face, my eyes, my hair, my blue...

The journey is part of the destination.

I'm blessed.There can be gems in the rough. Even if the rough is really hard and makes you sad.

Please let me believe there is hope.

Had some good news today that helped me feel a little better. (Though loneliness still lingers.)Will things continue in that direction?

Sooooooo sad.Sooooooo lonely.Dear goodness, when could this end?

Hey— How are you doing?Did you see the e-mail I sent you? I find I'm not on the site very often these days :-|.Hope you're doing okay.

Although it's been a relatively long time now, I still have't gotten used to it.Whenever someone mentions cavalierly how they had sex with someone earlier in life who they weren't married to... it...

I don't like having all these sad messages, but it's how it is. I was very depressed tonight about not having someone to hold... for affection... for sharing. Just to be with.It's very hard to deal...

How do you know what you're meant to do? What if G-d puts someone before you and you're supposed to talk to the person, but you don't? What if you keep being nudged by what you think are signs, yet...

If I remain true to myself, I won't get what I'm looking for (on the sexual issue).Can you refute that statement?

It hurts when you realize that it's you, in large part, that stands in the way of your getting what you want. It hurts more, because it's not anyone else's doing. It's your own issue.If only I had...

soft, white pain falling to the ground, dampening the noise from the street the shuffling along of boots on a sweet, lonely night beautiful layer of soft white, glittering, footsteps making marks to...

Have to put here that depression is making my life painful and sad... just to share.