Right, so, I'm on this site because of abstinance. I'm just going to say this: I really have a need for sexual exploration now. I really want that.I'm soooo... rrhhgghhg... frustrated! It's so difficult to keep things bottled up. It's emotionally "right"; but it's.... so painful, too, now.I want to explore.I want expression. I don't want to hold things back at this time!! [And I feel like I keep hearing more and more girls think that I'm cute! (Or did in the past.) Oh, my gosh; was my perspective of myself so... skewed?] If I fall, how much longer until I do?If I do, how hard will it hit me?...
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I know exactly what you are feeling, I too struggle to resist those urges. I am trying to change what I focus on, not watching things on tv or movies that get those desires stirred up and I try to stay busy with friends and hobbies, it is most difficult at night when you would like to snuggle with someone you know loves you and share that intimacy out of a true love and passion not as just some urge that needs relief.I\'ve waited this long and cried so much about feeling rejected and unwanted, but I can\'t let myself get into situations that I may not be strong enough to resist the temptation. I would really disappoint myself and my future husband if I ever do. You\'ve waited this long, hang in there and trust God to send you His best for you, it may not be as far away as you think. being in this group is really helping me, because it gives me an outlet for my emotional feelings and I hope that I can help and encourage all you, it gives me a since of fulfilling some purpose other than being someones sexual partner and I can hope to the time my husband and I are together. Don\'t lose hope.
I technically may not have waited as long as you (yet) but I am already so frustrated. I have so much respect for you for holding out so long. I know your intentions are good. Someone is bound to see that soon, and you will find what you deserve.
Thank you both.