SearchingAndWaiting

I'm tired.And I don't just mean physically.

So alone.So badly, badly in need of physical affection. When will it happen?I can't take it. I'm so deprived...

Panic attacks.Suffocating despair. And loneliness.I don't know how I'm going to get through this. I'm consulting with a doctor who has prescribed different things, and I'm trying a new counselor.But...

I want to die. It seems there's NO ONE, NO ONE, NO ONE, NO ONE, NO ONE, NO ONE, NO ONE, NO ONE, NO ONE, NO ONE, NO ONE who believes in waiting for the right person to have sex.What the f---?I don't...

Waiting for things to look brighter.I feel like circumstances (some, at least) are out of my control.

Depression's really bad.I'm going to see my doctor in a couple of days. I don't want to take medication at all; but I do, because I realize the benefits outweigh the negative aspects.Am very...

Words are futile to convey what the heart feels.

So, this is how it is now? In such despair, and with such loneliness, in large part from finding out that there's almost no one out there who feels as I do. Who felt it right to wait, and so,...

Please, please let me find someone. Please.Someone who hasn't done it, either.I can't stand it. I can't wait. I don't want to wait anymore. I mean, in principle, of course... I do.But practically,...

I try to meditate, but there’s so much sadness and despair.I want to write, but there’s so much pain; it’s too difficult to get past.Were that a force bigger than I would come in and pull me...

I had a bad date tonight. I knew it would be bad before I went out with her, because our last date was bad. I just was desperate to be with SOMEONE... so I went out with her. I need safety. I need...