shendelzare
Status: Insanity: doing the same stupid shit over n over expecting different outcomes
Mood:
Good
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remember this day brother for today life is good....As i listen to maroon five sing always you at blaring high volume sober clean and content i want to leave this small note here.... a reminder for...
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Not that anyone care or really gives a shit or it matters but i tried to kill myself last night, unfortunately I didnt die im alive just very hung over.I tried to contact some friends, to get some...
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So I woke up early today, it was a mistake one that just reminded me of why I try to sleep as much as is humanly possible. Sleeping is the best way to pass the time here; with no internet, no one to...
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Its the third day since I started trying to pull it together again; it hasnt been too successful so far. I mean yes I have been waking up for Fajr and going to sleep on time at nights but thats about...
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Its 4 51 Am; I am already showered and dressed ready to go pray in a little while. I feel good this morning, I've had a good 7 or so hours of sleep I have clear goals for today and I think all the...
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I have no self respect. I really have none what so ever; I am a disgraceful, honor less cunt. But the problem is I am a very proud and vain man by nature and nothing hurts me more than getting my...
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Storm Earth and Fire heed my call!!!!i always did like that one line from warcraft. I dont know why but it gave me comfort it always did it made me feel not so alone. I have alienated everyone I...
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I dont even know where to begin. threres so much to be said...just so much and I dont even know where to start. I have no words left no energy nothing left....I am exhausted
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i dont want you to try i never asked for it and wanted it. im good thanks . you are only a reminder of my lowest point in life and thats what you will ever be for me.
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just thought id put it on record I didnt cut i wanted to I felt like it but i didnt
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Okay so before I start bitch raping myself over whats happening and bitch about life I think to be fair to myself I should put on the record that it has been almost 5 days since I cut myself. I was...
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Okay so I think its time i get my shit together again I have three weeks I need to find my grounding again and pull myself togetherSo enough talk enough bitching about lost love and how bad life is...
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for those of you who are new to my journal or who are reading this entry cuz of the tittle let me put your minds at easy relax Im just a big attention whore/drama queen.yes I am going to try kill...
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Hmmm its been a while since I came on here to bitch and moan about how cruel life is and how unfair things are and what a martyr I am and how rough I have it and all that crap.... I havent written...
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Im in one of those moods again sighthis stupid cycles never gonna end I was am and will always be a junkie. I will never amount to anything more than a street fucking addict roaming the streets penny...
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