Worst suicide attempt to date
Not that anyone care or really gives a shit or it matters but i tried to kill myself last night, unfortunately I didnt die im alive just very hung over.
I tried to contact some friends, to get some help, not one but actually 2 friends I tried but neither came to my aid I guess they both thought I was being a drama queen and just throwing another one of my tantrums.
Its the cost of being the boy who cried wolf i guess, you say you are going to kill yourself so many times that eventually people just stop believing you mean it lawl.
I smoked enough heroin to kill a fucking donkey last night and then slashed the shit out of my arms and legs like I was jack the ripper. Locked myself in the bathroom so that no one would be able to come save me even if someone knew or found out. I passed out there on the washroom floor in the cold and woke up at about 6pm the next evening lying in a pool of vomit and blood with a splitting headache and very hung over. When I went outside I realize my mom wasnt in town so nobody had even bothered to come into my room or check on me and no one in thehouse even knows i tried committing suicide last night. I live in a house with my mother, father, my fathers older brother, his wife, my grandmother, two of my fathers nephews who are my age and one daughter who is a few yeard older than me. Yet not a single soul even realized that I had been missing nearly 20 hours.
After I woke up I simply washed myself wiped and cleaned the blood and the vomit washed my stained cloths and went downstairs as if nothing had happened. Nobody not a single soul still has even the faintest idea or cares to find out if there is anything wrong with me or anything going on in my life (:
This is one of my most serious attempts to date but unfortunately I lived. If only I had choked on my vomit, or the drugs I used had been enough to shut down my respiratory system. If only I had used some rat poison or something else or even more heroin for that matter or if I had cut myself deep enough to bleed out. Sigh
There were so many possibilities so many chances that I would die but i didnt Gdammit
I tried to contact some friends, to get some help, not one but actually 2 friends I tried but neither came to my aid I guess they both thought I was being a drama queen and just throwing another one of my tantrums.
Its the cost of being the boy who cried wolf i guess, you say you are going to kill yourself so many times that eventually people just stop believing you mean it lawl.
I smoked enough heroin to kill a fucking donkey last night and then slashed the shit out of my arms and legs like I was jack the ripper. Locked myself in the bathroom so that no one would be able to come save me even if someone knew or found out. I passed out there on the washroom floor in the cold and woke up at about 6pm the next evening lying in a pool of vomit and blood with a splitting headache and very hung over. When I went outside I realize my mom wasnt in town so nobody had even bothered to come into my room or check on me and no one in thehouse even knows i tried committing suicide last night. I live in a house with my mother, father, my fathers older brother, his wife, my grandmother, two of my fathers nephews who are my age and one daughter who is a few yeard older than me. Yet not a single soul even realized that I had been missing nearly 20 hours.
After I woke up I simply washed myself wiped and cleaned the blood and the vomit washed my stained cloths and went downstairs as if nothing had happened. Nobody not a single soul still has even the faintest idea or cares to find out if there is anything wrong with me or anything going on in my life (:
This is one of my most serious attempts to date but unfortunately I lived. If only I had choked on my vomit, or the drugs I used had been enough to shut down my respiratory system. If only I had used some rat poison or something else or even more heroin for that matter or if I had cut myself deep enough to bleed out. Sigh
There were so many possibilities so many chances that I would die but i didnt Gdammit
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I know hot it feels when you think no one cares, but im sorry about this. but having done that i won\'t let anyone else do this to themselves. you might not think its true but i care, just because i think suicide is truely wrong, its so wrong fro someone to kill themselves because they are too sad.. please dont do this. it will only make things worse. i can help you if you will let me