Operation Shit gathering
Okay so I think its time i get my shit together again I have three weeks I need to find my grounding again and pull myself together
So enough talk enough bitching about lost love and how bad life is without heroin and how tough having OCD and bipolar is and all that crap enough words its time to act
heres the list of things I need to do in order to get my shit together I need to
start:
stop cutting
start praying~ 3 times a day
start aggressive gyming~ 3 sets of push ups twice a day+ running 2 rounds
read the fucking books that have been lying around~ 20 pages every day
eat three meals a day
aggressive daily inventory morning and evening~ Blog about everything twice a day
I need to get back in touch with my old sponsor or get a new one.
control time spent gaming/watching movies and tv shows~ Less that 5 games a day
work on obsessive thoughts
No more porn the fuck at all
No masturbation~ 1 jerk off allowed each day
Fuck my ears hurt like hell NO MORE HEAD PHONE USE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No writing stupid shit on peoples walls especially sheikh navaids wall
No more cat pictures on facebook
No talk of sara or blue eyes or any other girl :@
No more fucking teen drama
one deliberate act of kindness everyday
spend 10 minutes in nature every evening
talk to xara and mehvi everyday
use onenote and sticky notes more aggressively
strengthen work ethic
use better cues use mobile and other gadets to my advantage to keep track of progress and give constant reminders
So enough talk enough bitching about lost love and how bad life is without heroin and how tough having OCD and bipolar is and all that crap enough words its time to act
heres the list of things I need to do in order to get my shit together I need to
start:
stop cutting
start praying~ 3 times a day
start aggressive gyming~ 3 sets of push ups twice a day+ running 2 rounds
read the fucking books that have been lying around~ 20 pages every day
eat three meals a day
aggressive daily inventory morning and evening~ Blog about everything twice a day
I need to get back in touch with my old sponsor or get a new one.
control time spent gaming/watching movies and tv shows~ Less that 5 games a day
work on obsessive thoughts
No more porn the fuck at all
No masturbation~ 1 jerk off allowed each day
Fuck my ears hurt like hell NO MORE HEAD PHONE USE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No writing stupid shit on peoples walls especially sheikh navaids wall
No more cat pictures on facebook
No talk of sara or blue eyes or any other girl :@
No more fucking teen drama
one deliberate act of kindness everyday
spend 10 minutes in nature every evening
talk to xara and mehvi everyday
use onenote and sticky notes more aggressively
strengthen work ethic
use better cues use mobile and other gadets to my advantage to keep track of progress and give constant reminders
Replies
haha First off, the title of this journal entry is just Golden man haha, love it.
Good for you to write out a list and take steps towards changing your situation, the way you\'re feeling, and your life
my sister always says, your life is going to keep being shit, unless you demand better, you have to demand good things, or else you will just keep being given shit, and accepting shit.
Best of luck with this all, and let me know if theres anything i can do to help support you through it and ensure your success!
Sending all my best wishes
~Hay
actualy hayley there is something you can do to help be my recovery buddy
make a list of things you need to do like eating more and cuming harder :P
and work on them with me....
Its good that you took this step. Wish you best of luck with it. I need to do something like this to start getting my life under control as well.
I must say,although its a good list,i dont really endorse #10 and #11 in ur list lol. ;p
the cat pictures??? :O lol I know but its become like a bad habit it needs to stop
no the porn and masturbation one. I dont endorse the idea of u stopping it. ;p
no the porn and masturbation one. I dont endorse the idea that u need to stop doing them. ;p
haha clearly you have a vested interest in my not stopping :P
but yes I do need to stop babe
operation shit-gathering rules! i love that title dude! you are so clever, funny, and awesome.