wendimac

When Tom was still alive, he wanted to come home.  He was tired of the hospital, and didn't want to be there anymore.  Although I had arrangements set for him to come home, he declined that week,...

tomorrow I will be picking up Tom's remains.  Just writing the words is a start realization that he really is gone onto another world.  I really don't know how to go on without him.  He is my...

A lot has happened in the past 2 weeks since Tommy passed.  We've had the viewing, the funeral, now I'm waiting for his remains to be ready.  Still crying everyday, but I seem to be able to control...

I keep going through a whole array of emotions...except joy and happiness...haven't felt those since before Tommy got sick.  I go from depressed to thoughtful, to profoundly sad, then to...

I'm getting ready to go to my husband's funeral.  The peace I felt last night after the viewing has been replaced by more tears.  I so wish this hadn't happened.  I guess this is the big finale,...

Getting ready to go to my husband's viewing...I really don't know what to expect.  I did spend some time at his bedside after he had passed, but it's been 10 days now...I need to see him though, one...

It's 2am.  I'm still awake.  It's going on 10 days since my beloved Tommy passed away.  It's crazy that I never considered that he would.  Even though he was so very ill, I had hope...maybe too...

I woke up this morning, and for an instant, it was like everything was normal...and then I remembered that life totally sucks now...it all seems pointless...Tomorrow is my husband's viewing, and then...

Now that everything is sorted out with the proof of marriage, I have to take a set of clothing over to the funeral home when I pick up the death certificate...another stark reminder that he is...

I am feeling very hopeless right now.  And I feel guilty for that because I still have my son to think of, and I feel terrible that I can't so much as crack a smile.  Things I used to enjoy up...

Just sent an email to the Burnaby Hospice Society requesting counseling services.  I think I really need help.  I can't stop crying, can't stop wishing for the day that I see him again.  For the...

I took my son to school today, and on my way home, realized that there was nothing to rush home to.  I keep going into the back bedroom where he spend a lot of time before going to the hospital....

It was a week ago tonight that I last saw my husband alive..barely.  He was just lying there, not taking anything in.  I'm not sure if he even knew we were there,but somehow I knew that would be...

Got an email from the funeral home today, letting me know that they will call in a day or so when the death certificate is ready.  At that time I need to bring clothing, pictures, etc.  It's so...

It's nearly 9 pm and other than going to the funeral home this morning, I haven't been out of the house.  I've been going through boxes, looking for anything that my husband may have written, or...