Missmom75
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- What triggered it: Watching a couple kiss on tv so passionately. The last time M and I kissed like that was too long ago. And I realized that I want that passion and deep love more than anything. I could never have that wih M. He's too cold, too...
- I look at my phone about 845 times a day. I will it to ring. I make up all sorts of fantasies in my head about how he's sitting there, doing the same...thinking I'll be the first to break. I'm certain, on some fckd up level, that he's thiking I'll...
- Today's a better day. Sometimes I wonder if M was so rotten because he's intimidated by me. Maybe he feels inferior to me which is why he felt a constant need to put me down or disappoint me. I've always felt like he embelished everything about...
- I don't know why I'm doing this. I trust you guys and I feel the need to share how truly fckd up I am.10:45pm : I am so hurt. I don't feel self-righteous, I don't feel powerful, or strong or have this sense of self-indignation. I feel depleted,...
- It's storming where I'm at. I normally LOVE LOVE LOVE stroms and torrential rain but of course, it's connected to whats-his-face. He doesn't work on rainy days since he works outdoors, so what woudl happen is this: Seeing as how spending time with...
- NC since Wednesday. I'm ok. I have some really good, strong self-righteous moments and some really low pathetic ones. I wish I knew what he was thinking. I wish I knew whether or not he feels any remorse. I couldn'thave done things differently, in...
- First off, I know that he is the problem. But as Dr. Phil says, there is always 2 sides to a pancake. lolM Hardly showed any interest in my life. I remember thinking even in the beginning how disinterested he seemed about my every day life. He would...
- I couldn't hold it in anymore. For a year I have been holding stuff back, biting my tongue, swallowing my pride for fear of rocking the boat with M. Every little (and big) shitty thing he's done, I have collected and stored the pain and...
- Hi ladies :) missed you guys...ok, not really. lolHad a wonderful trip with my gf's...it was exactly what I needed.Had the time and space to regroup, set my priorities straight. AND I got to see Bon Jovi live! I had very little contact with M. He...
- I feel especially grateful tonight for being surrounded by such grand love. I have you guys, my cyber-support..my beautiful family and my gf's who I'm going on a road-trip for 3 days starting sunday. Thsi came at a perfect time :)Can't wait to be...
- When M and I started off, I was in total control. He was calling and texting at ALL times, there was even a point when I remember feeling turned off because he was way too clingy. He'd be out with friends and I at home with my son, and he'd text me...
- or rather..he talked, and I feel like a fool for listening to him and now more confused than ever. :(I was leaving my house this morning for work and he was parked accross the street. I pretended I didn't see him but that seemed so silly as his pick...
- Why these emotionally unavailable guys stay with women who love too much. I haven't had 'the talk' with M yet. been dodging it for almost a week now. There's minimal contact, but I haven't seen him. Luckily I've hardly been home and just really busy...
- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K-FQL-tJ3icI will NEVER give up
- I keep getting these flashbacks of tiny little moments that really, were HUGE moments I should have paid closer attention to. Like one time not long ago, I sent M a picture msg of my son. He didn't respond to it. He later told me that he meant to...