It isn't easy at all. I went no contact with my ex on Tuesday and it seems like forever. Like you I'm wondering if he misses me :(

It isn't easy at all. I went no contact with my ex on Tuesday and it seems like forever. Like you I'm wondering if he misses me :(

Ladies you are doing so well! Stay strong. Im headed into nc week three and it is very hard and I know exactly how you feel. Blocking their phone numbers really does help. Do it for yourself. It will stop you from obsessing over your phone.

I obsess even if he is blocked :(

Miss did you read my post titled Has the N really moved on?? I think you might find it helpful.

Yes I read it It WAS helpful. Gonna read it again when I have a moment.

Yeah, there's no point in blocking his number. I will still obsess, and he will still call if he really wants to.
I got a text from a number I didn't recognize the other day. it was just 'hey'. I asked who it was and they never responded. Of course, I have a slight suspicion it's him, which is why I haven't called it back and give him teh satisfaction. It's always been such a sick game with this guy.

You are right, it is a sick game, that they play and that we participate in. There is a certain satisfaction we get from the contact that they make and when they don't make it, we feel badly, wonder why they haven't, feel unworthy, miss them more, take it upon ourselves that we have done something, and feel even more hooked. Such a sick dance we dance.

Yea.. I broke no contact to ask when he was coming to move his stuff out and his reply was never, im coming home.. He loved screwing with me. He knows he isnt coming back home.

We're teh ones who are sick because we keep falling for this shit.
I get such satisfaction out of the stupidest things..
And you know, if he would text me right now, even if it was to send me to hell, I would take that as 'ahh, he's thinking of me, yay!'
and then i'd be fine for like a week. I'd feel like the ball is back in his court and I don't need to do anything for a while. Then he won't budge until I do...meanwhile I'm losing it a bit more every day until there is contact again.
It's been like this for a year. I'm so exhausted.

Yeah blocking him on my cell would make no difference. He could call my work phone, he's done that before. Missmom75 I would do the same thing if my ex texted me :(

oh man, I could go on and on. It could get quite funny, actually. lol

I want a man that doesn't make me feel like a beggar. someone that doesn't dish out some crumb of attention once in awhile when it suits him. I won't have to be grateful for some small evidence that he's thinking about me. we can do better for ourselves than the bs these guys dish out. stand firm miss mom. you can do it and you're worth it.

You nailed it swelsha!
I was soooo made to feel liek a begger with M. I ften felt like I was being rewarded when he woudl 'show up' and then I would try to mimic my behavior prior to that reward because I thought that's what I needed to do to have him, even for a bit. sick.
I felt STARVED for his affection. I felt depleted every time he'd leave after a visit.
I miss something about him now...not sure what. But i also feel a great sense of relief because I'm not anxious for teh next visit, not dreading the next departure, not nauseous with worry about where this is all going. It's a such a wierd mixture of emotions. I can't wait for them to all blend into one - indifference.

that's a big 10-4 on indifference. oh yeah

I have a note my D3 wrote to me while listening in on a conversation when he first came back around to try to get me back. She wrote it because she could see me and I her, but he could not because I wouldn't let him in the door. It says. "Action speaks louder then words, make him prove it".

This lets you know how bad he is. His actions ALWAYS contradict his words. Always. He claims to love me, and uses the excuse that being 'around me hurts too much' and yet, does he do ANY thing to repair our relationship so that maybe being around me wouldn't hurt because he'd be in my life?? Nope. Not one damn thing. Nothing. Nada. Zip. I hear nothing from him. I never see him. There are no titillating text, or crumbs of good morning, or jealous checking, emails, facebook checking (he doesn't use it) or any other way of checking in on me. He simply doesn't care despite his "words" to the contrary. His words, as always are LIES. He doesn't try to fight for me or us. Doesn't care what happens and I have no idea why he truly hasn't made a move to divorce me. I don't get it. What he's waiting for I have no idea. I think he's wanting ME to make the move to do so, so he can say that I was the one that filed!!! Just like my first ex husband pulled. I swear to God they must have a handbook because they all do so many of the same things. They're either stalking you--- or- completely having nothing to do with you-- or just keep you on the line for their own supply feed.